I am in a panic mode.
Christmas is a few days away and I am not ready to face it. All of a sudden, I felt like Mister Scrooge reincarnated. I was thinking all sorts of things. I love to go shopping but just thinking about the effort to wrap up all the gifts makes me feel so exhausted. The Christmas dinner, each year? I would search my cookbook and come up with holiday treats that I could do with the kids. Now I don't have any idea what to cook. I have no excuse, I am not prepared for it. I had no time. Aarrrgh!
I felt bad for the kids. I felt so much like a bad mom, too busy with the career and neglecting home. That's not how I envisioned my kids would see me. I am in a rut.
So yesterday, hubby and I, together with the kids and the nanny set out for a day of Christmas shopping. I know what you're thinking - christmas shopping with the kids?! What was I thinking about? Hehe. Well, that's me hitting two birds with one stone. I wanted to be with the kids...but I am pressed for time, I needed to go shopping otherwise no gift-giving on Christmas. Sigh. Good thing my nanny was there to help me out. So we set out to dive into hidden treasures for the "perfect" christmas gift.
Before we set out to go shopping, we had mass at the Greenbelt Chapel. I loved hearing mass there, it was solemn and condusive. The kids were having fun...I felt peace somehow. That night I received my perfect gift. A message from above.
The homily was very good. The priest said, "Happiness, is an inside job." That caught my attention. I listened intently as he says that during Christmas we, at some point, put on a facade that we are the "saviour" ready to save the world with our own version of "giving". We set out to paint our houses, spend so much on gifts - most of the time overspend, we lavish our houses with ornaments and we pretent that we have it all covered...we pretend that "this" was what Christmas was all about. He says that Christmas is not that at all.
He says, we should not put so much guilt and weight on our shoulders -just to please other people. That way, we lose the spirit...we lose the gift of giving because it becomes automatic to give in that way. Sometimes, we should allow ourselves to feel the happiness and let the spirit of Christmas overpower us. Because that was what He wanted us to experience. The joy that comes with the remembering His birth. During Christmas He wants us to feel like a child again, anticipating His coming, as he brings His gifts of love. I don't know why, but I felt relief.
This season, I think we should all learn to relax a bit and just enjoy the experience. Forget the things we have to do and accomplish. It all starts inside, that tingly feeling we get in our chest as our hearts burst with love and happiness. Let's make it happen, let LOVE come from the inside then out.
“There's more, much more, to Christmas than candlelight and cheer; It's the spirit of sweet friendship that brightens all year. It's thoughtfulness and kindness, It's hope reborn again, For peace, for understanding, And for goodwill to men!”
Merry Christmas to you my dear dear friends! I wish you all good things and blessings all year round.
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Some of us, if not all of us, at some point in our busy lives have secret places where we relax and decompress. A sacred place not for everyone to see. This place is quiet and soothing, surrounded with all things fresh and good. Well I went to that place today.
Today I took the day off, I have not done that for some time now and it felt good taking it slow for a change. After the kids went to school this morning, I grabbed the chance to go back to sleep. Snuggling back down into the warm covers felt soooooo good. When I woke up I had breakfast and then coffee. I went back to bed and did absolutely nothing. It was exhilarating.
I went to this secret place in my mind where everything was okay. I wanted to empty my mind somehow so I can fill it back up with new things. It seems to have been filled with soooo much work lately. Sometimes I am too tired to do anything and having the kids around takes away the tension. And of course hubby is always there to pep me up. But sometimes, you gotta go to a place where you get to be just yourself . No commitments, no decisions to be made, nothing just BE.
I guess it worked because I felt very relaxed. After awhile I opened the television and watched cooking shows. Haha, I really love doing that. My daughter always ask me why I watch Giada or Ina Garten and yet I don't really cook full course meals. Opppps, now don't get the wrong impression. You wonder now, who cooks for hubby and the kids? Haha, well I guess that's where my mom and nanny comes in. Well, I do cook occassionally, but mostly breakfast and dinner. I will not be able to do the things I do at work and get to play with the kids if I don't have a great support group - and I am blessed that I have them.
I really miss you guys, I hope to visit all of you very soon. In the meantime, I leave you something to ponder on. For those weary souls...read this and be comforted.
The Lord is my Shepherd = That's Relationship!
I shall not want = That's Supply!
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures = That's Rest!
He leadeth me beside the still waters = That's Refreshment!
He restoreth my soul = That's Healing!
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness = That's Guidance!
For His name sake = That's Purpose!
Yea, though I walk through the valley of t he shadow of death = That's
I will fear no evil = That's Protection!
For Thou art with me = That's Faithfulness!
Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me = That's Discipline!
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies =
Thou annointes t my head with oil = That's Consecration!
My cup runneth over = That's Abundance!
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life =
That's Blessing !
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord = That's Security!
Forever = That's Eternity!
Do not ask the Lord to Guide your Footsteps if you are not willing to move your Feet. Peace to all.