Saturday, March 24, 2007

the good life...

i was watching my SATC dvds and run in on a quote from Carrie, "life is what happens when you're busy making other plans." that had me thinking. are we sometimes so busy with thoughts and plans for our life in the future that we are actually missing "living it" in the here and now?

i remember when i was younger, my parents would always talk to me about the importance of education. according to them having a good education, that is, graduating from college and getting a good job would get me the life i wanted. but is that really ALL life is about?

some days i get up asking myself, "is this it?" is this what i was born for? getting up at 530am, get ready for work, take my daughter to school, kiss my husband goodbye as i head off to my office, work my butt off for 8, sometimes 10 hours, and then head home and have dinner... and then, and then be greated by two beautiful girls all smiling and giggling, excited to see me, to hug me and to cuddle with me as they tell me how their day went and how much they missed having me beside them all day long. my husband sitting there beside me as we listened to two chatty and giggly little girls talking at the same time about their dollies and their favorite tv show . . . then i pause and say to myself... YES. my head nodding vigourously, this is pretty much the life that i had planned for myself all along... knowing that someone loves me no-matter-what (well someone other than my parents, of course), having 2.5 kids and have a house of my own, no matter how small. nothing fancy or frivolous.

i don't want to busy myself with "could haves, would haves, should haves". i want my life to say "i did, i have, and i always will"...and live this own version of, the good life.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

multi-tasking is counterproductive

Scientific studies say that multi-tasking is counterproductive.

According to JobStreet Career Coach, multi-tasking is a managerial buzz-concept these days, a post layoff corporate assumption that the few can be made to do the work of many. But newly released results of scientific studies in multi-tasking indicate that carrying on several duties at once may, in fact, reduce productivity, not increase it.

Surprisingly, I find this to be true. I, myself, am an advocate of multi-tasking. Lately, however, I find this fact to be applicable to me as well. My tasks as a manager are to supervise and head several projects at a time. I also have the task of monitoring tasks that I have delegated to my staff and prepare some sort of report from time to time for my boss. I also have to sign several documents and letters on a daily basis. There are also calls I have to answer and e-mails that I have to reply to every day. Let’s not forget the daily problems that I, also, have to resolve. Too much for you? Well, welcome to my life.

Some people call it enumerating your task, some call it whining. I prefer to think that I am just enumerating my tasks for the sake of posterity. I believe I can work with minimal supervision, although my boss, somehow doubts that and makes it a point to drop in on me and inform me, all too often, all the things that I have not done yet!

i know she means well, most of the time. but her approach somehow makes me feel somewhat incompetent at times. although sometimes i am challenged to hear those two most sought-after words "well done".

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

peace and quiet

there are days when you feel loud and chatty. there are days when you feel like just slumping in your desk, just typing away like there was no tomorrow.

today, i wanted to finish a lot of things. my typical day at work would start with coffee. not the brewed kind but your 3-in-1 kind. i would have loved to drink a macchiato everyday, but that would be way too expensive for me. i was trying to munch into a sandwich when a message popped in my screen. just three little words. three dreaded little words that is an indicator of how MY day will be like.

"please see me".

today, like the past few days, i felt a little tired seeing those words flash in my screen. probably because it flashes more than 10x in a day. my initial thoughts would be "now what?!". true to form the summon would mean just two things. she wanted me to do some report or i would be reprimanded

as i was walking towards her desk, my feet felt heavy and somehow, even if the day had not really taken on, i felt tired. i remembered reading a book which said, there were two types of people - the energy suckers and the energy giver. lately my energy has hit rock bottom.

as i flapped down to the chair in front of her several thoughts were raising to my head. i don't need this. i could do something else. i could be sipping a hot macchiato inside the Starbucks in Intramuros and chatting away with my friends in my brandnew lappy. or i could be lazing around in my bed watching Season 2 of the Supernatural and secretly wishing Dean, the lead character, would be lying down next to me.

"where's the report?" Pooof! my dream balloon seem to have been pricked by a needle.
"the report is ready maam, i just need to confirm an item with you." "ok, let's hear it."

just like that my morning went on with a series of meetings, consultations, phone calls and what-have-yous. then there's lunch. my lunch break is somewhat sacred to me. 60 precious minutes away from it all. 60 minutes of chowing down a tasty pasta down my throat or gulping down a really yummy greek, exotic pizza.

lately i have been thinking do i really like what i'm doing? deep down i know, i do. but there are days when i feel soooo bone-tired and the things i have to do weighs heavily in my shoulders. but then there is also a part of me that wanted everything to go smoothly. i guess i was secretly wishing, just for once, i could hear her mutter "well done". i guess that'll be the day.

Sunday, March 11, 2007


relax. the spa people told me.

i was having an aromatherapy massage at my favorite spa. and my body was not cooperating. i guess my psyche is still in full battle gear. i had a rough day at work and feeling a little desperate and wanted to relax and slow down via a massage. it was kinda frustrating trying to do something so easy yet so elusive. ahh why can't my muscles just relax?! how one feels and how one sees things in their life is sometimes all a matter of one's perspective.

here's a story about "Perspectives" i received on e-mail. I thought this was pretty nice. always seeing the good side does pay off.

One day a father and his rich family took his young son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night in the farm of a very poor family. When they got back from their trip the father asked his son, "How was the trip? "Very good, Dad!"
"Did you see how poor people can be?" the father asked.
"Yeah!" "And what did you learn?"
The son answered, "I saw that we have a dog at home, and they have four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of the garden, they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lamps in the garden, they have the stars. Our patio reaches to the front yard, they have a whole horizon.When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless.His son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are!"

Isn't it true that it all depends on the way you look at things? If you have love, friends, family, health, good humor and a positive attitude toward life, you've got everything!You can't buy any of these things. You can have all the material possessions you can imagine, provisions for the future, etc., but if you are poor of spirit, you have nothing! Author Unknown

as for me, i have to loosen up. all work and no play makes me a dull girl=( better luck on my next visit to the spa.