Friday, August 03, 2007
just me and myself today
Today I had the chance to do things I had wanted to do for some time now. No work, no deadlines and no tiger lady telling me to stand on my head and spin around like crazy.
After I took my youngest daughter to school this morning I had a chance to go to the salon and pamper myself. It just opened so only a couple of clients were there. I was surprised that I was the only girl-client there, they were all men! I guess men need pampering too as much as women ha ha. After I'm done there I went to my daughters' school to bring them some special lunch. My eldest was surprised to see me because it's usually my mom or the nanny who brings lunch. I felt content just looking at her munch down her favorite food and smiling at me as if I had given her a gift.
"Mommy, I wish it was you who brings my lunch over everyday", she said.
I held her cute face between my palms and gave her a big kiss and wished with all my heart that I was a stay at home mom, then I would be able to indulge her everyday.
"I wish I could too baby, let's just be thankful that we did it today", I said.
"Okay mom, love yah! I have to go back in now." she ran inside as I watched her back and wished again that I was the one doing this for them every day.
She stops and turns to look at me, smiled and then comes running back to me. "Thank you mom," she gave me a kiss and a hug.
I am so proud of my daughters, as young as they are they know how to appreciate people and they know how to love in return. I stayed at my kids school to wait for my little one who finishes classes right after my eldest has her lunch. Had a chance to talk to some of the moms there as I was secretly watching them and listening to what they were saying. Somehow I felt myself lacking in some way. They were armed with everything, extra clothes for the young ones after school, extra drinks in case they're thirsty, they fuzz around and talk to the other mommies there, comparing notes, exchanging recipes and talking about the kids, what they've done and not done. Compared to them, I felt like a man in a woman's world. I consoled myself into thinking, I am probably just a little calmer and err shy. I, sort of, felt like an outsider being a working mom amongst SAHMs.
After a few more minutes my little girl came out with all smiles. "Hi mommy, you're here to pick me up!" Stating the obvious, I could not help but laugh. She talked non-stop about what they did and then hugged me, "I wish it were you picking me up everyday!". Shush! My heart was swelling with joy. I could only wish I could do this for them all the time.
Ahhhhhh, the joys of motherhood.